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Lana Del Rey got sad and talked about death (again)

‘It’s hard for me sometimes to think about going on when I know we’re going to die’

Lana Del Rey thinks about death a lot. And I really do mean a lot. The “Born To Die” singer has even managed to craft four albums out of the subject – a collection of morbid melodies that are laced with her very own kind of strange, sultry melodrama. “I think ceaselessly of death,” she once casually revealed to Madame Figaro magazine“The concept of mortality is a vagueness that is constantly threatening.”

Despite admitting to that over a year ago, it turns out that Rey is still very much stuck on the subject. So much so, in fact, that she's decided to bring it up again in an interview for Billboard. For the magazine's latest issue, the songwriter-slash-existentialist opened up about her phobia of death, as well as her crippling panic attacks – which she believes are getting progressively worse.

“It’s hard for me sometimes to think about going on when I know we’re going to die,” she shared. “I remember being four years old and I’d just seen a show on TV where the person was killed. And I turned to my parents and said, 'Are we all going to die?' They said 'Yes,' and I was totally distraught! I broke down in tears and said, 'We have to move!'”

“Something happened in the last three years, with my panic (attacks)... it got worse,” she added. “I saw a therapist – three times. But I’m really most comfortable sitting in that chair in the studio, writing or singing.”

Admittedly, her melancholy attitude is a pretty polarising one. After famously telling The Guardian that she wished she “was dead already” to be more like her heroes Amy Winehouse and Kurt Cobain, Rey has come under a lot of fire for supposedly glamourising the idea of early death. However, she's always been quick to backtrack on the claims.

“I feel fucking crazy,” she told Rolling Stone after The Guardian incident. “But I don't think I am. People make me feel crazy. I find that most people I meet figure I kind of want to kill myself anyway. So, it comes up every time.”