Lady Gaga has spoken out about the long-lasting trauma of being raped by a record producer when she was 19 years old.
The artist shared details of the attack and its impact on her during an appearance on Prince Harry and Oprah Winfrey’s new series about mental health, The Me You Can’t See.
In the show’s first episode, Gaga recalled the experience, which she made public in 2014. “I was 19 years old and I was working in the business and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off’. I said no and I left, and they told me they were going to burn all my music. And they didn’t stop… they didn’t stop asking me and I just froze, and I just… I don’t even remember.”
The musician said she will never name the producer in question. “I understand this #MeToo movement, I understand that some people feel really comfortable with this, and I do not,” she explained. “I do not ever want to face that person again. This system is so abusive. It’s so dangerous.”
Gaga went on to reveal that she experienced a “total psychotic break” years later, which pushed her into an “ultra state of paranoia”. She continued: “I (couldn’t) feel my own body. First I felt full-on pain, then I felt numb, then I was sick for weeks after. I realised that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner (by) my parent’s house, because I was vomiting and sick. Because I had been abused, and I was locked away in a studio for months.”
Speaking about the attack in 2014, Gaga said she was determined not to be defined by it. “I’ll be damned if somebody is going to say that every creatively intelligent thing I ever did boiled down to one dickhead.”