This morning, actress-slash-writer-producer-slash-director Lena Dunham released a book. Completely by surprise. Is it evil not to be sure? is a collection of entries from her diary or “Creative Snippets and Observations Journal” as she refers to it.

“Earlier this year, recuperating in bed from surgery and feeling painfully adult, I found my journals from 2005/2006 on an old hard drive,” Dunham said in an interview with Buzzfeed. “I was, of course, full of the kind of mortification that is part and parcel with meeting a former version of yourself, a woefully misguided girl desperate to be embraced by even the least exemplary specimens of young American malehood.

“But I was also moved by – maybe even proud of – how carefully I had recorded that period of time, my younger self’s commitment to capturing the kinds of hyper-internal formative moments so often lost to adulthood. I have always believed that women chronicling their own lives, even (or especially) at their most mundane, is a radical act.”

Described as “a candid, chaotic, and occasionally poetic snapshot of a young person becoming an adult,” the book is out now, available to buy on Kindle.

Proceeds from the book are going to Girls Write Now, a writing and mentoring organisation for girls based in New York. “I can’t think of a more admirable goal for an organisation, or a better reason to expose the oft troubling thought patterns of my final teenage year,” said Dunham, explaining why. 

h/t The Cut